Category Archives: Encouragement
Warrior of the Light
“A Warrior of the Light makes Decisions. His soul is as free as the clouds in the sky, but he is committed to his dream. On his freely chosen path, he often has to get up earlier than he would like, speak to people from whom he learns nothing, make certain sacrifices. His friends say : ” You’re not free.” The warrior is free. But he knows an open oven bakes no bread.” – Paulo Coelho
Facing Fear in my Nightmares
Sometimes it’s good to ask your self, “what am I afraid of?” Slowly start dissecting why you fear this and work towards overcoming it. You won’t reach your full potential if you’re stuck in your comfort zone. I’m learning this slowly, but surely. In order to face fear we have to look it in the eye and FIGHT it . If we don’t that fear will consume us.
I seemed to keep having a reoccurring dream about a monster/demon chasing me. I would find myself running away and tripping and waking up terrified and drenched in sweat. I was so pissed that this dream kept happening, and each time I ran I thought I could escape the creature, but I never seemed to run fast enough. One night before I went to sleep I thought to myself, I’m tired of running, time to fight…
I went to sleep that night bracing myself for what was about to happen. I saw the shadow of the creature but instead of running, I looked around me for a weapon or ANYTHING I could use to whoop this monsters ass. I was so used to running that I failed to realize the shovel that was on the ground. I gripped that shovel so tight and remember screaming into the unknown. I stood still, and watched as the the shadow was so large, but the creature was small. It ran past me without so much of a second glance.
I woke up relieved and happy as ever. I saw this dream as a sign that our fears look bigger than they actually are. Once you face them, you will see you are bigger and stronger than any fear. Fears are lies and tricks so say strong, and face your fears…
We Danced in the Rain
We locked eyes again for the 1st time in years,
And it was as if we had never left.
As if time stood still
And our lives continued once again when we were in each others company.
We walked down memory lane,
laughed at old nicknames,
Childhood memories.
Grey covered the sky,
And we still reminisced carefree on good times.
And as the clouds made love
And gave birth to rain drops,
We laughed with pure ecstasy.
Not running from natures gift,
We danced in the rain.
Drenched in love,
We thanked the heavens for our alignment.
Danced as if we never missed a beat,
Laughed as if time stood still,
Lived as if the universe plotted this day from the beginning of our existence,
Loved as if it were our destiny to be right here.Right now.
We danced in the rain…
Being the Change
I’m learning how to react to negative things and people in positive ways. What I mean by that is, something I view as negative may be preparing me for something great. We have to learn not to repay negativity with more negativity. The universe may send something ‘negative’ our way to test how we react to it. Will we give in and be consumed by the negativity, or create some good from even the most difficult situation?
I’m realizing that every prayer I’ve sent up is getting answered and will get answered in some way. Maybe not the way I wanted, but God know whats best for me. I believe he’s building my character. He’s molding me into this great person he knew I would be before I even existed on earth. I asked for strength and he sent me trials and hard times to overcome. I may not understand and may never understand, I just believe that hard times are temporary. That the storm will pass when I overcome and pass these tests.
I had been repeating a cycle of doubt and gaining temporary security in alcohol. A cycle that covered up an inner pain that had been picking away at my inner greatness. Alcohol dependency helped me put on a mask and cover up what was really bothering me. I was quick to anger and slow to listen. Consuming too much alcohol was only a temporary fix. When the buzz would go away I was still left to face myself and my inner demons (self-doubt, guilt, anger).
I’m slowing down on alcohol consumption.I’m regaining self worth, learning to love myself again and thinking more positively. I must get out of my own self-imposed cycle so that I can truely experience what God has in store for me. I can’t keep re-opening doors God closed for a reason. Instead I’m learning to be still and appreciate everything and take all my mistakes as lessons learned.
Sometimes we get impatient and run in hopes we’ll reach our goal faster. In running we make wrong turns, we get off track from our path, but eventually God sends us the right people and signs to help get us back on track.
I’m so blesssd to have met amazing people to encourage me, to keep fighting, dreaming and striving for greatness. One day at a time and one step at a time. There is so much I don’t know, but I’m being more open to learn and experience new positive things and people.
REDEMPTION
REDEMPTION
On the way down
Life turns into a fantasy.
The devil plants smoke and mirrors,
Snares trying to capture me.
Claiming the fast lanes where it’s at
As he plants fiction into my mind.
Sending snakes disguised as men to my bed side.
90 MPH with my hands in the sky.
Thinking it will all last,
As the devil starts to laugh at my ass.
Self-hate and self-pity
Reflect from the mirror,
Showing someone I no longer remember.
“GAIN BACK CONTROL!”
“HOLD STRONG TO YOUR SOUL!”
My inner voice slowly begins to take hold.
“YOUR WORTHY!”
Distraught and confused
An inner battle takes place.
“BUT MAKE HASTE ON WHICH SIDE YOU WILL TAKE.”
I AM LOVE.
So I choose the light.
As I fight to regain my reality.
Danced with the devil and slowly awakened from the fantasy.
Fast lane only brought inner chaos and utter tragedy.
Self- love and forgiveness start to bring me back to my morality.
PEACE OF MIND.
No longer a victim but a QUEEN for all to see.
Finding redemption and love in the little things.
Dreaming again…
Living again…
Loving again…
Little Black Boy..
Powerful.
Lets Take a Long Walk…
Went for a walk today to clear my mind. Filled my soul with positive thoughts and encouraging words. Been having some difficulties lately, but instead of dwelling on the bad I chose to focus on the good. On my walk I looked around thought of all the things I’m thankful for. My thankful list out weighed any negative thoughts. Even though lifes tough right now, it’s only temporary. Realize we all may fall and sometimes feel down and out, but we were created with fight in our spirit. We must have the courage to fight for love and respect. The courage to realize our light still shines in the darkest of places. The courage to LOVE ourselves and want only the best for our well-being. Take a mental break sometime from stress and go somewhere that makes you happy.
Glad I have amazing friends to teach me great things. A nice quiet walk will put your heart and mind at ease..
Things are only going up from here on out. Get back to appreciating the little things.
Religion vs. Spirituality
I almost got caught up in trying to force my beliefs on others and I had to step back and reevaluate myself.I stepped away from some VERY Religious individuals who were some of the most judgemental people I’ve met. NOT saying everyone is like this, I’ve just had a run in with a few.Everyone has a different relationship with God, and love and show praise in different ways. I love PEOPLE despite what religious background they may be. My spiritual journey is more about understanding my flaws, trying to correct my wrongs and uplift people.I’m so far from perfect and will never be perfect. I’m goofy as heck and lame at times, but I love bringing smiles to peoples faces. I say hello and compliment complete strangers on the daily. I want to spread more love and understanding for people of different races, sexualities and religions. In the end we all want peace & love. If we gave up the desire to be right (when it comes to belief systems) and be more understanding and loving, more progress could happen. These are just my opinions.
*Read more books
*Seek knowledge
*Enjoy the little things
*Communicate your problems
*Encourage one another
*Don’t judge
*Create together
*Have fun
I’m thankful for my friends and family for helping me wake up.
I plan on being the best me I can possibly be. Everyday is another opportunity for me to be better than I was yesterday. That goes for everyone.
I’m getting back to what makes me happy. Building a stronger relationship with my family and healing old wounds that I never actually gave time to heal. Lifes hard but, I love my life and wouldn’t walk in anyone else shoes but my own.
Standing for Something.SELF LOVE
The verdict last night had a strong impact around the nation. I’m still in awe that an unarmed black kid was gunned down and his killer was set free. Some people have such strong opinions about the case, that it’s hard to carry a conversation without starting an argument. I’m tired of arguing, I just want to have a conversation. I know that their is such a thing called whats right and whats wrong. We are all HUMAN BEINGS and deserve to be treated as such. Trayvon Martin was put on trial at his own murder trial. It’s naive to think this case wasn’t about race. I want to do more to uplift my community, instead of siting around silent. I’ve been quiet far too long, and asleep even longer. I’m waking up and I hope other people are as well.
The black community is suffering and being brainwashed not to believe we are. Instead of being united we are bashing one another, killing one another, and judging one another. Our light has been hidden behind layers of self-hate and insecurities that were taught to us. Making it seem that our skin and hair color was anything less than beautiful. We’ve become so numb to it that its seen as the norm. History is repeating itself as it so often does. Can we learn how to organize again?
“How do we get past this and have productive and constructive things take place?”
You can still sign the NAACP Petition as well as get involved with organizations combating major racial and social issues.
Stand for something, or you’ll fall for anything
NAACP PETITION
DREAM DEFENDERS
TRAYVON MARTIN FOUNDATION
Small steps are something. Don’t let this case be forgotten like so many other cases before this was.
Courageous Mimi 